We are living in the worst timeline
January 22nd 2025
I am fully freaking out. Fascism is coming back full force and we are watching it happen. We have no other choice but to watch it happen because we are not obscenely rich white men. Because peaceful striking has only ever gone so far before the rich figured out they could simply act like they weren't happening, ignore them until they died out. At the same time, I'm scared. I want to act, I want to partake in some way of fighting back, but I'm a coward! I've never fought a moment in my life, never been physically violent, and I even actively fear pain. I've been raised to be complacent and quiet and passive and it's precisely this sort of thing that has allowed the hateful and the cruel to take back power. I may not live in the United States, but many places are following its example. Italy is starting to go back to the Mussolini days. France, I'm sure, is not far behind-- the hatred may be slightly less prevalent, but it is there. It's more insidious in France: attacking the little things. The way some people act, the way they dress. All for the pretend sake of "living together". I'm scared! God, I'm scared! I'm scared for my loved ones, I'm scared for the world, I'm scared for myself! It's coming ever closer and I can see it and I have to go to class anyway, I have to go to work anyway, and there's nothing I can do until it reaches us and suddenly we're back in the 1940s because we haven't done anything!!!!! My heart hurts because people should be so much better. People should know better. Kindness and tolerance should be the norm, but we've taken it for granted, and we've neglected to consider how easy it is for the helpless to turn to hatred. And the rich will always know how to weaponize that hatred to further their own beliefs. My father, who would so obviously be affected by this sort of change, is, just like so many other immigrants like him, completely oblivious to it. He supports nationalism, he hates and hates and hates, and it's so awful to witness because he is a loving man. He's just uneducated, easily influenced. Everyday I curse social media. I'm starting to wish it never existed at all. Of course, the hateful would find other ways to influence the easily influenced, but social media has made it a million times easier. It's a place where people can communicate hateful, cruel, awful ideas without ever facing true punishment, and more and more people will turn to that because it's so much easier for them than to make the exhausting effort of being accepting of others. I hate people. I'm scared. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do at all.